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The Other Side of Happiness

I've been there before. A happy place. A place where my soul is quiet and content. A place when I enjoy life and enjoy my family. And no matter how hard I try to swim back to the surface, this dark hole continually pulls me down. 

So I swim with all my willpower and I still sink. 
I swim with heartfelt prayers and fasting and I'm sinking. 
I swim with Scripture verses swirling around me and I quote them out loud and stamp them across the doorposts of my mind, yet I am gurgling for air and barely staying afloat. 

And the only thing that keeps me from sinking to the darkest place of no return is a tiny glimmer of hope. The hope that I remember dancing above the water before and this one verse, "A thief comes only to rob, kill, and destroy. I came so that everyone would have life, and have it in its fullest." (John 10:10) 

A Full Life.
An Abundant Life. 
A Life Set Free from the misery of my mind and my own thoughts. 

This thief is my enemy. 
This thief is my depression. 
This th…